Why the heck am I different?

by The Big K on February 25, 2010

Oh God!

People have told me – I’m different. I don’t think like the ‘normal’ people. I wasted my time in Engineering college and therefore couldn’t get a job right away when I was in third/final year of engineering. I’d spend my time with computer installing Linux and understanding how to change the Windows startup screen than making friendship with girls and going out to movies/shopping with them. I spent my evenings going to the Guitar class and getting the major, minor and 7ths right than going to pubs/discos and trying out a peg/puff. When my friends dreamed about working for Google, Microsoft and Adobe; I thought of running a company and giving these companies a tough competition.

I prepared for GRE/CAT and then realized that I wasn’t meant to get MBA or MS because they aren’t needed to become and entrepreneur. When I got into job, I couldn’t comply with decisions taken by my managers and politics by my colleagues. I never looked at my salary (even my first ever salary!) and I never thought of promotions. I never wanted to be a rockstar performer in the company because I never cared for which ‘platform’ I worked on. To me, it looked like donkey work.

I couldn’t handle company appraisals and being told “You need to improve your communication skills” and then being rated average in almost all the categories – when I really had worked hard (and smart). I never understood the fun in going ‘onsite’ and then living cheaply there to save money only to buy a flat in Pune.

I started my venture part time instead of going home tired after work hours. Rather I’d go home and then spend 4-5 hours without really experiencing the hardwork I was putting in. I enjoyed every moment of it than killing time watching TV and debating why Indian IT Industry sucks.

I also have had hard time adjusting in the city of Pune and don’t get the “Pune is full of life” thing.

…and here I am sitting in this grade III city, working hard towards making new things here and probably missing out on ‘life’ and in turn the ‘little little joys’ in everyday life.

Someone please change me. Make me like you.

-The Big K-

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Amruta February 26, 2010 at 1:09 am

Oh biggie don’t say like that. I just luv this grade III city and am trying hard to come back there and make a living.
What I know definitely about Pune is that it is full of ‘Maranacha’ Traffic and Pollution. But still there are these opportunity-magnets in Pune, Mumbai that pull everyone to them.

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The Big K February 26, 2010 at 8:44 am

@Amruta: I’m not in Pune (tire II city). I’m in Tire III city.

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Amit Sharma March 1, 2010 at 10:18 am

K, don’t undersell yourself. Oh wait, it was ironical.

What you described is pretty awesome. If I was you, I wouldn’t want to become “normal”. Stay as you are. The world needs more like you.

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Mayur March 2, 2010 at 6:34 pm

That is very ironic and sarcastic of you. I dont understand the logic behind the post though. And the timing too.

Anyway, I’m one of your biggest admirers for your patience, persistence (I know you dont like that term) and hard work. Wish we could work together. I think one day we just might.

Best of luck for your quest.

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The Big K March 2, 2010 at 6:42 pm

One of my dreams is to get all friends together under one roof and make a joyful, playful workplace where everyone will do world-class work and have so much fun that they won’t feel like going home in the evening.

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durga March 3, 2010 at 3:44 am

i felt the irony and sarcasm to max in this post, so refrained from commenting initially.

I felt this post was more like ” se I am different.. you guys are normal” rather than one filled with agony :P of being different

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Mayur March 4, 2010 at 3:43 pm

@Durga: He is only assuming we are ‘the normals’. Truth might be stranger than the imagination :-)

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kunal March 5, 2010 at 11:29 pm

i just want 2 say ” sir richard branson is very much differnt from normal people so does einstein and benjamin franklin….they changed the world and u know why they changed the world because they were differnt (except sir branson he is alive..)
so dont rest until u change the whole world…..”

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One March 7, 2010 at 1:16 am

I think that the people who are really “different” don’t write a post about it in their blog… rather other people will write about how different the “different” person is…

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